I Unknowingly Lived with Raynaud’s Phenomenon for Over a Decade
In 2004, in the dead of a Victorian winter, my dad taught me how to surf. Calling it cold would be a gross understatement — it was absolutely freezing and bitter. Though I had no way of knowing it at the time, in retrospect, that year was life-changing for me in many ways. It was the cornerstone of a very competitive and successful career in stand-up paddleboarding throughout my teens. And for the first time in my life, I noticed that my hands turned blue when I was cold, which I would eventually learn was Raynaud’s phenomenon.
When surfers talk of “stoke,” they refer to the infectious and all-encompassing passion of falling in love with surfing. They say it’s like a bug: Once you are bitten, there’s just no turning back. Throughout my later childhood and teens, that was exactly me; I’d only get out of the water once I’d lost all the blood in my outer limbs.
As a skinny kid, a slender teen, and an athletically built young adult, I’d always felt the cold more than everyone else. In my head, I attributed the blood loss in my hands and feet during cold temperatures to a slight stature. Researching lupus symptoms after my diagnosis in 2016, Raynaud’s phenomenon was listed next to an array of photos depicting an all-too-familiar physical occurrence. And I realized exactly at this moment that, unbeknownst to me and everyone around me, my body had been displaying signs of chronic illness for over a decade.
It’s important to note that not everyone with Raynaud’s develops a chronic illness. Many live with it their entire lives, never experiencing anything more than an irritating loss of blood in their hands and feet at extreme temperatures. But for some like me, it could be a potentially foreboding telltale sign of the future.
From the age of 9, Raynaud’s was a constant fixture, especially during the winter surf season. In 12 years, it never progressed or became something a pair of socks or five minutes in front of a car heater couldn’t fix. In the last six months, as I’ve endeavored to take more of my life back from lupus and started surfing again, I’ve seen a significant shift. It used to take an hour or so in the cold water before my Raynaud’s kicked in enough to be noticeable; now, I can’t leave the car park without at least three toes in my left foot going white.
While nearly all of my other lupus symptoms have lessened or even disappeared over the course of treatment, my Raynaud’s has reached new heights. Working in a drive-through coffee kiosk, I find myself up before dawn, before the sun has had the chance to take the chill out of the air or the frost from my car windscreen. Though I protect my top half with thermals and layer upon layer upon layer of jackets and vests, I can’t seem to stop walking around with a numb left foot. On cold Saturday mornings, I drag myself out of bed to play netball. If it’s particularly cold, I’ll catch a ball with my face, at least during warm-up, because my hands are just too cold and too numb to work properly and catch the ball.
If I’m honest, I don’t know what’s ahead of me with Raynaud’s. I’m not sure if it’s likely to keep progressing or if it might peak. I’d love to think that this is the extent of what I’m in for, but I’m aware that’s probably just wishful thinking.
Do you suffer from Raynaud’s phenomenon? Share a funny story or a way of managing it in the comment section below!
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Chris
As always I enjoyed your post. I went to a doctor in my late twenties to relay symptoms of Raynauds. My mother had it . Hers was triggered by cigarette smoke. In the 60's that meant there was NO place we could go together because smoking was allowed everywhere. My GP said this " Keep warm. Get plenty of sleep, eat well, take vitamins and have a shot of alcohol daily." This worked for me for many years. As my other connective tissue symptoms became troublesome;I was diagnosed with RA, Lupus and Fibro. One day in summer in my Rheumy's office she said to me" Oh, my God your hands are blue ". "Sure" I replied. "I have Raynauds". She said "Now you do. It can only be confirmed when your extremity, usually fingers, turn blue or white".
I could predict my period. I was an extremely heavy bleeder. So, before the start of my 2 weeks of bleeding , my arms would feel like someone was pulling hard on the veins in my arms.
I moved to a warmer climate upon retiring and received better treatment here. My Raynauds is worse when I flare. But now the symptoms are more painful.
My family here surfs with wet suits. Would that help you keep warm?
Wishing you well.
Melanie Dick
Hey Kristi,
I got Raynaud's only when breastfeeding. The feeding would be fine...but the next 30 minutes after was like someone had taken razors to my nipples! It was horrible. And I actually thought for a while that this was the feeding pains they talked about with breast feeding. So I ignored it. Until I spoke to a few nurses who informed me the painful part was the feeding, not after the feeding. I was eventually diagnosed with Raynaud's. And I breast fed both kids through winter. So as soon as I was done feeding, I would like face down with the electric blanket on 3, until the pain passed. Every 3-4 hours. I am glad that it is the only time I have noticed symptoms. It is certainly an unusual affliction!
Sheina Lerman
I live in Atlantic Canada and winter is my favourite season. That's partially because having discoid lupus has made me extremely heat and sun sensitive. While living with Raynaud's is bothersome (my hands change colours and have become a kaleidoscope attached to my body), it's much less problematic than the heat and sun sensitivity. I fear summer and am anxious whether I will be able to manage all the pain, swelling, burning and other discomfort it brings to my life. My solution to dealing with Raynaud's in our cold, windy, winters was to devise several systems of layering gloves and mitts, depending on the weather and humidity. I also bought myself a pair of very warm, waterproof, beautiful, sealskin mitts. They keep my hands warm and dry in the coldest, dampest weather. As an avid cross country skier, figuring out how to keep my hands warm in spite of Raynaud's has made a big difference in my ability to get out and enjoy my favourite season.