We Can’t Do It All
Battling lupus stinks. It takes so much out of you. When I was diagnosed, I was selling homes, I had a full social life, and I was a big ball of energy. I would cook, clean, entertain, and work. As lupus settled into my body, I have found that even having the energy to move around my apartment is a task some days.
I have to remind myself that my life has changed; it’s no longer as simple as it once was while just doing basic things. There are days when I don’t crawl out of bed until well into the afternoon, even though I am naturally an early riser. Energy levels keep me in bed, and on those days, I eat raw because the energy to cook definitely does not happen.
After spending the majority of my life making things happen, when life comes to a screeching halt, it’s tough. I have learned to make some adjustments and realize that I just cannot do as much as I could once upon a time. The adjustments I have learned have not been easy, but they’ve been necessary.
I like to think I am a strong person, but when the body rebels, I must take the time to listen. I would love to say I can overtake lupus. But in all honesty, the times that I have attempted to be in charge have led to hospital stays, passing out, and losing my lunch. I often tease and say I’m beating lupus, but I have learned to make lupus my partner. I know it’s not going anywhere, so when it allows me to have good days, I am appreciative. On the days when it says for me to rest, I allow it those moments.
I miss being able to do a lot of the things that I once took for granted, but I am learning new things about myself. I am learning to do new things and explore options that I never would have considered before. I now spend a majority of my time helping to support other warriors battling lupus. I try to help them realize that while we may move a little more slowly, we can still accomplish our hopes and dreams. It’s not the easiest thing to relinquish the power in your life. It’s not easy to admit that as a young woman, doing basic things is hard. But in the end, the best thing for us, really, is to accept that we can’t do it all.
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