I’ve been overweight most of my life. In high school, I thought I was fat! Looking back at pictures from that time, I wish I was that size again. Before my lupus diagnosis, I was 20-25 pounds over my ideal weight — I thought I was huge. Today, I would be happy to be just 20 pounds overweight.
Lupus comes with pain
Having lupus means that I’m in pain most days. I have muscle spasms in my arms, legs, and back. I’ve had spasms in places that I didn’t know had muscles. Because I also have fibromyalgia and rheumatoid arthritis, my hands, knees, and hips have almost constant aches.
All these aches and pains are affected not only by what I do but also by things I have no control over, like the weather. It is always worse when the pressure changes, but cold, rainy days are miserable.
Steroids help, but they come with a price
My pain management doctor introduced me to steroids. He told me that he could stop the pain in my knees for several months at a time with just one shot. I jumped at the chance to be pain-free without taking strong meds that made me drowsy all the time.
It wasn’t until the day of the procedure that I heard the word “steroid.” Of course, I had heard of steroids before, but I didn’t know much about them. I mainly associated steroids with athletes, as something they used to improve their performance. I was so desperate for relief that I signed the consent form without a second thought.
The shots helped so much that I agreed to let him inject my hips, too. The pain disappeared almost instantly. But then I started researching steroids and I discovered why they have such a bad reputation. The shots masked the pain and allowed me to do a lot more than I could otherwise. The downside was that I overdid it and my legs were so sore that I couldn’t walk the next day.
I feel like I am always hungry
Along with masking the pain, the steroids made me hungry all the time. I was not just snacking between meals; I wanted snacks between my snacks. While working, I’d grab a box of cookies, and before I knew it, the package was empty. All the signals that should’ve told me when I was full had quit working. It was mindless eating at its finest. I could blow through a package of cookies or a huge piece of cake and not even remember what flavor it was.
Trying to reverse the weight gain
I am working on paying more attention when I eat. I’ve slowed down and I make sure to taste every bite I put in my mouth. And I don’t buy cookies anymore because I can’t trust myself not to eat them all at once. Now I keep grapes and strawberries for when I want something sweet.
I’m also trying to cook healthier meals, mostly lean meats with lots of vegetables. It’s a struggle because I have a lot of old habits I need to change. I’m not perfect by any means. I still have bad days when I feel sorry for myself and think that chocolate will help, or special days like my father’s 85th birthday when I splurge and eat more than I should. But those are the exceptions now, rather than the rule.
By taking time to plan meals and snacks and sticking to my plan — nothing drastic, but small changes that I can live with — I am making progress. Little by little, I know I’ll get there.
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