When I initially received my diagnosis, a regimen of medications was sent to me overnight. I had spent most of my adult life following a healthy lifestyle, so it took me days to read the side effects. It wasn’t because I had issues comprehending the words, but they were so scary that had I read all of this information at once, I wouldn’t ever have popped pill one.
So, I read, processed, questioned, and accepted. I didn’t pay these side effects any more attention; I just took my meds like a good little patient.
When I arrived in Thailand, I saw the lupus specialist at Bumrungrad International Hospital. The specialist said U.S. doctors overmedicated me and that, according to my blood test results, some of the medications I was taking were of no benefit and posed a potential health risk.
When I prepare to travel with prescription medication, I make sure to carry my medical records with me in case customs officials stop me at border crossings. So, after this hospital visit, I sat down on my sofa and began to reread the side effects. They included the following: muscle weakness, loss of balance and coordination, easy bruising, dizziness, loss of appetite (including anorexia), stomach pain, hair loss, neuropathy, muscle myopathy, and blood dyscrasia (issues with platelets). I realized that I was experiencing all of these side effects.
Suddenly, I was confused. Was I fighting the symptoms of lupus or the side effects of the medications that I’m taking for the disease?
I recently got a new hematologist, and when I asked about these side effects, I received a typical “Western” response for the first time since leaving the U.S. He said: “All medications come with side effects, but this is the best medicine for your condition.” I asked him about weaning off the medications to find out if I am fighting the disease or medication side effects.
He looked at me as if I had three heads and again stated that this was the best medicine for my condition. I thought that if I were staying in Thailand, I wouldn’t see this doctor again. His response was equivalent to, “You will take it because we said so.” So, I asked him what they give people battling lupus who have an adverse reaction to the medication.
He wasn’t even willing to entertain that situation’s possibility. When I move to Mexico and get settled, the first point of business will be to find a doctor who will find out what I am truly battling.
My philosophy is that if my condition is going to deteriorate and I will be in pain while on medication, why be on medication? I am fine with trying other medications, but I refuse to keep poisoning my body if it is not helping.
We must advocate for ourselves. A medical plan of “that’s the best medicine for your condition,” without really knowing if it’s helping, is not my idea of a good plan.
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